Friday, April 24, 2009

5 weeks Pregnant!!!

I can't believe it! I have known for almost 2 weeks now that I am pregnant! It is crazy!!!! I'M PREGNANT! I don't think it is honestly going to sink in until I am screaming in pain pushing a 8lb baby out of my "whoo-hoo"! The paranoia won't leave me alone though. It just consumes me! Every second of the day! I have to keep telling myself what will be will be!!!

So now that I am 5 weeks pregnant you would think I would feel pregnant. Besides the ungodly amount of weight I have been gaining the past month (which I am sure has nothing to do with the fact that I am pregnant and everything to do with the fact that I just eat to much) I feel great. I have had a few bouts of nausea here and there, but nothing for a couple days now, some constipation (that I am sure you have read about already), my BB's are bigger and a little sore but nothing to write home about that's for sure, and I have been mildly tired...but that is normal for me. I'm usually not a ball of energy after work anyway. I hope everything is okay. I have another beta on Monday....a week after my last one....why do they do that to me? Waiting a day is torture let alone a whole freaking week!

So on a side note, Camping season starts next weekend! We went last weekend and opened the camper and now all we need to do is get our Golf Cart to the campground and we will be all set to go!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Ahhhh sweet relief!

Ahhh I finally POOPED!!! After eating about 10 prunes and downing some prune juice and then decided maybe a cup of coffee would work since I havent' one in so long, It finally worked......maybe a little too well too! Lol. Oh well, I'm cleaned out for now. Oh the relief. I can eat again. I couldn't fit one more thing in my belly if I tried!

So, besides my horrible constipation issue everything else seems to be going good. I had my second beta yesterday and it was 917! My first one was 224 so that was a good doubling time. My next appt is Monday for my 3rd beta and I have my u/s scheduled for May 5th! I can't wait! I just hope everything goes well. I am stressing myself out thinking about all the things that could happen and its driving me crazy. I have to just keep on telling myself everything is going to be alright and have faith in God that he is going to keep me and the bean safe!

Gary and I went out to Target tonight and checked out the cribs and the bedding and all sorts of fun other baby stuff. We decided we are not going to find out what we are having so we found a cute Winnie the Pooh bedding set that i guess would do. I love that we are going to wait to find out and I hate that we are not going to find out! I always had these dreams of my cute nurserys for my little boys or girls and now everything is going to just be blah gender neutral!

Well, I guess I have blabbed enough for the day. Off to finish watching The Biggest Loser and eat some kettle corn! Yum!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I think its setting in now

I'M PREGNANT!!!! For some reason I am having a hard time believing it? Can't imagine why? I guess after TTC for 3 years I never in a million years expected IVF to work the first time. Nothing ever comes easy for me, at least that seems to be the trend. At this point I am praying every single day that everything works out and nothing terrible happens and I end up with a beautiful baby in the future!

So I figured out my due date is 12/25/09! Its a good day, my dad was born on Chrismtas and is so excited he is going to be a grandpa and to have a grandchild with a birthday near his is pretty exciting to him. I told my parents yesterday. I planned on waiting until after my beta but I felt horrible keeping it from my mother! So we were on the phone yesterday and she was blabbering on with the "what if I'm pregnant" ramblings and I finally just said "I am", she had a long pause and said "Huh, What? What did you just say" Lol. It took her a minute to process it and once she did she couldnt believe apparently that I knew how to take a test so she asked me how I knew! Lol, finally to satisfy her I had to send her a pic of one of my tests......that I am conventiently carrying around in my pocketbook everyday! Lol. After she saw the lines she finally agree's.....I'M PREGANANT~!

Its pretty surreal at this point. I mean, I know what the test is telling me, and aside from some slight nausea I dont feel pregnant at all? I just want to make it through the first trimester.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Its Official!

As soon as I got out of work I ran to Walgreens and picked up $60.00 worth of tests and sped home and POAS! Within about 5 seconds I could see a line forming and I started screaming for Gary.....he wasn't moving fast enough, so I yelled for him again. When he finally got in to the bathroom all I could do was look at him and start shaking and crying. He didnt' even have to look at the test he knew. I honestly can't believe this day has finally come! Gary and I have been TTC for 3 long years and to finally POAS (after the hundreds I have already pee'd on) and to see that second line is just amazing to me. I can't wait for my beta on Friday, maybe after that it will seem a little more real to me! I posted a pic of the on it and it makes it bigger and you can see it better!

Maybe??? 7dp3dt

Well, I decided to POAS this morning and I *think* it is a faint BFP! I dont want to get my hopes up, we all know lots of different things could happen at this point, so I am being cautiously optomistic until I see the test get darker and I have my beta to prove it on Friday. I wish it was Friday already! I am going to stop on the way home and buy some FRER's. I tested on a Fact plus blue dye test and I dont trust anything but FRER's! I am going to try to put up a pic of my test from today, If you click on it you can see it bigger! So what do you think?

Saturday, April 11, 2009

5dp3dt and all the thoughts that go with it.....

Well, I am 5 days past my transfer and I honestly feel like I could lose my flipping mind! Could this 2WW go by any slower if it tried? I am analyszing every single twinge I feel and there have been quiet a few of them....mostly slight AF cramping....and I dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing at this point. I am hoping its a good sign. I did POAS stick today and it was a BFN so I guess I will hold off a couple more days and test again. The PIO shots are kicking my butt too...literally! I dont think I can take one more! My whole entire bum is killing me and I am bruised beyond belief! I think its insane that considering the fact I was deathly afraid of needles before I started IVF, I manage to do these injections every single night! The lupron and stims were nothing, but I never thought I would be sticking a needle a inch and half long into my ass muscle daily....willingly!

On a side note Gary and I finished most of the kitchen a few weeks ago with the exception of painting the walls and we have been trying to find the perfect color. We decided we wanted a yellow so we went with a color called pale lemon and that turned out nothing like what we looked good in the kitchen with the natural light but as soon as we started painting down the hallway the yellow looked Neon and horrible. So that was paint color #1, paint color #2 was a kinda greenish blueish color......and it was horrible, then we decided to go with a more green less blue color and that one turned out too minty....kinda sherbert like and that was horrible. So after many hours online we finally decided with a color called Barly by Benjamin Moore. It has a bit of gold in it I think and is perfect for the kitchen. So finally we have the perfect color in there and now all Gary has to do is finish painting and everything will be 100% done! When it is I will post pics! The difference is shocking!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009


The most dangerous cake recipe

4 tablespoons flour
4 tablespoons sugar
2 tablespoons cocoa
1 egg
3 tablespoons milk
3 tablespoons oil
3 tablespoons chocolate chips (optional)
a small splash of vanilla extract
1 large coffee mug

Add dry ingredients to mug, and mix well. Add the egg and mix thoroughly. Pour in the milk and oil and mix well. Add the chocolate chips (if using) and vanilla extract, and mix again.

Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes at 1000 watts (high). The cake will rise over the top of the mug, but don't be alarmed! Allow to cool a little, and tip out onto a plate if desired.

EAT! (this can serve 2 if you want to feel slightly more virtuous). And why is this the most dangerous cake recipe in the world? Because now we are all only 5 minutes away from chocolate cake at any time of the day or night

***So I got this email and of course me being the food lover that I am had to try it right away! And I gotta say its pretty darned good! I think next time I will only cook it for about 2 and a half minutes though! I put some vanilla ice cream over it and Gary and I were in Heaven! Yummy. I really need to stop eating junk though and its so hard with this easy cake recipe laying around!!! Okay, maybe one more night of cake and then I will stop!

Monday, April 6, 2009

Transfer Day!

Well today was transfer day! The two eggs that fertilized turned into beautiful embies! The RE said they are both 8 cell and one is a Grade 1 and the other a Grade 2, so they are perfect! We decided since they were my only two not to push them to day 5 and go ahead with the transfer today. It went fast and was alot like the 4 IUI's I had.....except I was on a incline this time. After the transfer Dh and I went out to Walmart quick to get a printer and then out to Chili's to eat lunch. Now I am home bored! Good thing its rainy out today or it would be hard to keep me on the couch! That has pretty much been my day. I put up pics of me in my silly hair net (why they make you wear them is beyond me) and the other is my two hopefuls! I sure hope this works! It was such a emotional experience to get that pic of my embies and watch them be put inside of me! So nuts! I already feel a bond to them and I am not even pregnant. It is just so strange to think that 2 embies are inside me floating around! Please pray for me guys. Its been a long, long, long almost 3 years and while I do believe I am strong enough to keep fighting and go through more cycles if I have to, I really dont want to! I just want this craziness to end! I want to be done with TTC and move on to having a baby!!!

Saturday, April 4, 2009

You have to be kidding me!!!

I just a got a call from the RE and out of the 19 eggs they retrieved, only 10 were mature and only 2 fertilized......and that was with ICSI! They usually like about a 70% fertilization rate and I only have a 20%! Go figure. So, so far those 2 embies are holding on.....they are expecting a 3 day transfer on this one ( I dont think they want to try to push my only two babies to 5 days) so It will probably be Monday. Ugh, so the nurse said "the doctor thinks something is wrong with your eggs" LOl......really? You think? The doc had just left for the day too so I couldn't talk to him after playing phone tag with them for the whole day. I guess I will just have to wait until tomorrow. Good thing I thought being put out was so much fun, because if this doesn't work it looks like I'll be doing it again soon! Geez, pray for me guys. I am going to lose it!

Friday, April 3, 2009

Day 10.......Take my Eggs!

So, today was ER day and boy was I scared out of my mind. Seriously, the poor nurses's there just had no idea how to calm me down! Lol. Finally the anesthesiologist came in and he was the sweetest thing ever. He made me feel totally calm! He gave me local in my arm so I wouldn't feel the IV being put in and then he put in the IV with no problems. After that I went to the Retrieval room and got in position and I suddenly started feeling kinda dizzy and I asked him If I should feel dizzy and he said he was taking good care of me and the next think I knew I was waking up in the recovery room! It was actually pretty cool. I would do it over again in a heartbeat! So they got 19 eggs. I am concerned because I stimmed so fast and coasted for a day that my eggs wont be mature enough but I guess we will see tomorrow now wont we???!! Also they said I am at a high risk for OHSS since my E2's were high after my trigger.....well, before my trigger they weren't great either....but after my trigger it was 6300 so hopefully I wont end up with it. But we shall see! If I do we will freeze all the embies and do a FET next cycle. So that was my day so far. I am drinking gatorade like there is no tomorrow and trying to pee as much as possible! And I put up a pic of me right after the ER. I'm makeup excuse me and its a little blurry since it was taken on my blackberry but you get the point!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Day 9............Freaking out.

Well, tomorrow is the big day. I am more nervous than I have ever been in my whole entire life and yet somehow I am acting calm as a cucumber! I am trying to "look brave" so I dont get Dh upset but seriously, I wish it was over with already! I have never been put under before and I am not looking forward to making this my first time. I made it 30 years without any sort of surgery and now here I am. I keep on telling myself it is going to be nothing, over before I know it, blah blah blah but I'm still freaking out! Well, I only have 2 more hours until I can't eat or drink anything so I think I am going to go fill up on ice cream and coffee until then.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Day 8.......Trigger this!

Well, finally something seems to be going my way! My E2's came back today at 3740 and Dr. Nulsen said as long as they were under 4000 we were going to trigger tonight. This is finally it! I can't believe it. I do my trigger at 12:30 am tonight ( I usually go to bed at 10 so this is gonna be tough for me) and then my ER is Friday morning at 11:30! I can't believe it! I am freaking out because I have never been put under before and I have no idea what to expect but I am so excited at the same time. Happy April Fools to me!
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